Even if u r rich&famous,do i look like i care?

Sumtimes i juz dun understand wif what hppn 2 people nowdays?bein arrogant,egois wif tons of money,le car,stdy ovrsea&so on.cmon lah,if u think u r rich&famous..bonus 4 u 2 approach me?dream on.im not interested at all.im not lookin on material. If u think u got tons of money dat cud makes gurls come 2 u,my advice : Y not u gv 'sedekah' 2 poor people?dun waste ur money 4 nuthin,coz u get it f.o.c from ur parents.im not da 'alim' person dat expert talkin bout gud&bad,but i juz want u 2 noe.im not materialistic.so.juz stay away from me.im gettin enuff deal wif sweet talker,big talker,liar&wuteva...so..so

DRAMA KING..enuff.

tq God,finally u show me da real colour of him .keep tellin me dat u r busy wif ur bsns...meet up client..at da end,i met a gurl dat in luv wif u..haha..u shud win da best actor in grammy award.4 da time dat wastin,4 da money dat nvr payback...standin ovation 4 u DRAMA KING.diz time,im juz gettin enuff wif u.gud lesson 4 me.so,movin on farah!be strong!focus on ur future!

:) my guardian angel....

walah..sudah lama x update...so many things hppnd,prefer 2 been away...now im back ...last nite juz like a moment 2 remember.when sum1 breaks ur heart,dun worry..God will gv u another 1 dat much2 better...eventhou i cant accept him as my special bF(but i call him as my current bF.. ;p),but he nvr let me down.always there 4 me.im leavin 2 u.k soon...i noe its gonna be difficult 2 him...(so do i lol).but let da nature takes it part.after all,thank you my guardian angel,D!

1.40 am..hurm... 0_o

1.40am..woke up..can't sleep nemore...haiz...sakit kepala....i text S.F,no reply...meanin he still busy wif his work....well,5 am kena hantar mummy pergi airport...nanti 8am i kena rush pergi office...9 am masuk kerja...1st day kerja dekat family company y_y...i dunno how 2 xpress what i feel...i noe,its gud 2 get new experience...but maybe i patut cari kerja dekat tempat yg x ada kaitan dgn family...so,afta diz..mesti dah jarang on9..jarang spend time wif S.F [ x tao lah..bila i bangun,der tido..i tido der pula bangun...macam tu jugak,bila i free..der busy..bila der busy,i pula free...haiz]..what 2 do????wish me luck../encourage maself!


''Born alone, Life live, die alone, Fall in love, break-up cry alone,
I lie alone '' - song;Live my life alone

2 him...take care....

woke up around 10..bcoz mummy knock2 my door..''mummy keluar dengan aunty,anythin...bibik ada...''..so,i said ..ok mummy...den,tengok h/p...x ada sms@mcall....meanin,S.F belum bangun lah tu...so i x tao nak buat apa,bloggin lol....well.last nite keluar dgn ahmad&mia...its been so long dat i x keluar dgn ahmad...so,rasa macam lain sudah...tq God,mia menyelamatkan situasi.so,lepak dekat kopitiam.mulanya juz biasa2..den,ahmad talk bout old story..so me&mia keep on laughin'...*wink!..hahaha...seriously, rindu zaman college...rindu semuanya.....tapi dah jadi history pun.well,ahmad will leavin soon...[8clly x lah leavin sgt]....der cakap,der ajak keluar sebab nanti lama x dapat jumpa....der nak away from me&mia 4 2@3 weeks....x tao lah,juz rasa guilty dgn der...did i hurt him so bad?eventho der gelak2,i still can c he is pretendin.... hurm....dlm jam 11 p.m abg adam datang,got sumthin 2 askin him.den,dah settle ...textin wif S.F...den tertido...

hari yang letih.....

well...sudah 2 hari x update..sgt2 busy dengan kehidupan selepas my leg cast kena buka..yeah!freedom in the air!!!so..perjalanan F.D kembali gagah..2day is hyrul's n-gagement...so dari jam 8 a.m sudah pergi rumah der...tolong2...sampai lah around 1 p.m..ada 7 dulang yg sgt simple & cumel..so,bila semua sudah ada..bertolak lah ke rumah pihak perempuan...kejap,ingat nama der....ouh,fifi...memang meriah,macam majlis kahwin pula..almost 4got,fifi sgt2 cantik..i really mean it.da way she smile,shows dat she is happy.hyrul pula,shy shy cat..hahaha..well,wish both of u happily ever afta [sumhow got mamarazzi talk 2 me,next ...ur turn dear -what da???] lol..............den,majlis selesai..balik rumah...dapat tido kejap...bila bangun,on9...malam nanti kena keluar lagi..dah janji dgn ahmad&mia...so..hari ni memang sgt2 letih....belakang pun dah sakit...kaki,jgn cakap..kebas y_y ...tapi x apa,yg penting happy&be positive..keep on rollin F.D/encourage maself ok! :)

dedicated 2 him............................

Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry


At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all...
After all...

what gonna hppn on saturday???

last nite susah yg teramat untuk tido..i dunno why migrain makin gagah menyerang? -_- .....hasilnya, S.F bangun lebih awal dari i..sampai der text banyak kali,baru lah i sedar..woah...so we chit chat..bla..bla..den,macam biasa der kena kerja..so,ok lah.i decide nak makan bcoz perut dah menyanyi lagu lost my breathe..haha..but,sumhow got call....ahmad.............hurm....

-otp-

A; hey

me; hey jugak

A; sorry kalu ganggu.what u doin now?hows ur leg?

me; nak lunch.esok buka leg cast.why?

A; ouh,great..8clly,wanna askin' u out diz saturday nite.dun worry,wif mia oso.

me; got anythin special ke?

A; nop,juz wanna meet u+celeb8 my birthday wif u.

me; [OMG..4got his birthday].....ouh,ok.will c.

A; ok.tq.take care.

me; wc.u 2.

_______end up.


damn!macam mana lah boleh lupa his birthday?haiz...mesti der terasa..what 2 do huh? diz saturday,confirm busy.wif hyrul n-gagement..kena jumpa cousin lagi....ahmad lagi.. y_y .....
now i dah hilang selera makan...huaaaaaaaaaaaaa..............................

he confessed 2 others :)

well..how 2 start yeah?baru lepas on9 ms...sumhow ada lah 1 gurl yg bagi advice bout my unpredictable rltnshp wif him.sumpah,i x tao der pergi cerita dekat his bestfriend..den his bestfriend pergi cerita dekat der punya gF...den gF der come 2 me & try 2 comfort me,i guess lah...so i boleh tergelak and repeat apa dat gurl cakap masa otp wif S.F.i noe it sounds like,wah mudahnya der ni bagi peluang???[sampai my mia baby marah2..y_y] hurm........ 2 be frank,its not easy...need 2 think from his side..my side...da last chance dear,and if it doesn't work..meanin...________________.so,will c what gonna hppn next..woah...like telenovela pula...so,readers..pls pray 4 my happy ending@maybe i shud say..4 my lucky 1 lol... 0_0

43 days only..now,back 2 basic....

7.30 p.m..woke up juz now..my head like..spinnin around..sakitnya y_y ... dats what hppn when 2 painkillers colab8 2 produce damn damn ___________. ok,what shud i say?43 days only,now its over.rltnshp paling sekejap i ever had..like in sara's blog,4ever means bulls**t.......but...i dun want 2 blame him.i'm not a gurl who easily put da blame 2 other person ok...coz i noe,how teruk i am......deeply in my heart,he is a gud guy...charmin..juz maybe,i'm not gud enuff 4 him. 2 S.F ,tq 4..happiest moment dat we'd both share,adorable smile dat u gv 2 me&everythin..everythin....tq so much... ;') ........... hurm...so,my life will back 2 basic...duduk dekat rumah,cakap2 dgn bibik..chill at mcD wif mia@cousins..ouh,btw...diz thursday, bai2 my leg cast ..woah..farah dayana akan kembali berjalan seperti biasa![physiotheraphy? do i care??]na....friday nite?later i fikir..so,farah dayana..dun be sad...pretendin happy,u'll be ok...ganbate![usaha gigih 2 comfort maself ni]

party..cousins..shisha..mcD...

6.30 am - sampai dekat rumah..woah..last nite memang da best party ever.met up wif all cousin..ada yg sudah lama x jumpa...cakap2...games..karaoke...part paling i suka friend of my cousin boleh buat magic [8clly x lah magic sgt,tapi bukan semua orang boleh buat aite?]...ouh,diz party dibuat special untuk mr.faris.next week der dah nak fly 2 u.k[take care huh y_y]...well,i try my best 2 hv fun..gelak puas2..try 2 4get all da pain inside..around 2 a.m,memang dah penat+sleepy..rasa nak balik...den,daniel cakap awal lagi...der ajak lepak dekat mamak..so,darlena,faris,jojie[faris gF]&me ikut saja...ingatkan betul2 lah lepak dekat mamak,guess what?boleh pula mereka tukar plan nak pergi pot shisha..nak x nak,ikut saja lol...so,order minum...cakap2...den,bermula lah era shisha..[sabar saja dgn asap... -_-] dat time,kaki i pula kebas.darl cakap,jom pergi massage dekat waterfront..i was like,huh?u nak bagi kaki i patah lagi ke?den,der gelak2.say sorry,lupa pula dgn kaki mcD ni ..wooh..[rasa macam nak makan mcD!] so,bila daniel&faris sudah puas dgn shisha..ajak mereka pergi mcD...tengok jam,4.30 a.m...OMG,patut lah kepala sudah pening...tapi kerana mcD,tahan saja...tengah makan mc Chicken..boleh pula keluar cerita pasal luv story..daniel mengada tanya jojie,what makes u fall in luv wif faris?..den,my turn pula..nak cakap apa?untuk rasa selamat,i cuma cakap..got prob wif him now,so x adalah kena tanya banyak ...juz mereka bagi advice.tq yeah!jam sudah menunjukkan 6 a.m,kena balik..kalu x ,ada yg kena bom dgn mummy..so daniel hantar balik..b4 tido,i update lah blog ni..

5 a.m...he nvr change.

woke up juz now...what shud i expectin from him? na...nuthin..like usually,he sleep w/o tellin me last nite.yeah,waitin him until 12 a.m, no sms@callin...well...well..another sad day 4 u farah dayana...i dunno how 2 fix diz damn situation nemore.sounds like i'm givin up?askin other gurls, i bet they wud gv da same answer lol. 2 him,if u read diz..i'm totally dissappointed wif u. keep sayin u nvr do dat again,but it hppn again,again and again... what ur next excuses? still learnin? stress? na...i dun think i can take it nemore. movin on farah dayana! ok2...2day,got party 4 my cousin..yeah i noe,wif my leg cast..its impossible aite? 4 sure i can't dance lol..so i juz wanna chill&hv some fun. hope dat it cud help me ..at least happy 4 a while... seriously,diz week like my damn sad hurt.bla..bla.bla..4 me.. wif fathers day w/o daddy,no 1 try 2 comfort me... maybe its da time 2 be heartless. i'm tired bein hurt by people around me............................y_y.......................................

i need sum1 2 be my BFF................

selamat pagi dunia..bangun dlm jam 9 lebih..den tengok h/p ada sms. mulanya mood ok saja,but sumhow dat sms totally make me sick.haiz....terasa gila2.i dunno how 2 say nemore.he juz make me cry now.last nite i cuma tegur,benda yg sama der buat.pagi ni pula der boleh fikir i marah pasal benda lain yg x ada pun dlm otak i...why lah der susah nak faham ?? -_- kalu i hilang selama-lamanya,wud he regret? ...rasa macam bawa malang saja dekat der...yana..yana.... entah lah,sekarang ni teringin sgt nak ada bestfriend yg boleh jadi my back bone.yeah,since i'm not close nemore wif ahmad,used 2 be my BFF b4 diz...i salu pendam masalah sorang2.kan best kalu buat reality show macam paris hilton tu..cari BFF....
dear God,pls help me now.....i need sum1 2 be my BFF....

u_u

gud mornin every1! around 6 a.m dah bangun,bcoz mummy lah...makan ubat,jangan pergi mana2..haiz...so,i text syahrool.mula2 ok,den x lama..dah start balik.i dunno whats wrong wif celcom lol...membuatkan pagi yg indah menjadi moody.den,i dah sakit hati..so biar saja...tengah fikir..what shud i do 2day..nak keluar,x kan lepas punya...so dgn rajin i on9 myspace&bloggin'...otak memang x stable...den,sumhow 1 of my old fren text me..hurm..8clly,kami pernah close,but sumhow..bila i tukar college..sudah jarang contact...der cerita masalah,so i juz dengar...i pun x tao what exactly my feelin now..rasa sakit hati yg amat sgt...she make me realize,baik sgt dgn orang tapi orang balas kita macam ............. u_u.

pumpkin is missin'......................

sebenarnya mata ini amat lah mengantuk+pening kepala...tapi x jugak mahu tido...argue wif mummy...ditambah lagi dgn risau pasal my pumpkin yg missin' in action..haiz..manalah der pergi..hope der x apa2...[walaupun dlm hati ni rasa nak saja marah...tapi x pasal2 pula nanti asthma... y_y]
OMG....kepala sakit sgt... -_-

old luv story..............

dah lama x update...den,sekarang ni x dapat tido.so here i am..bloggin lol..hurm..woke up around 9 am .den,bersiap sedia untuk misi menghilangkan diri sekejap dari rumah...alhamdulillah,mission complete.petang,duduk rumah saja bcoz my sis memberi ceramah kerana ingkar dengan arahan x keluar rumah until recover...malam,cousins datang tengok.havoc sgt sampai sakit kepala y_y..den,syahrool got things 2 do.so i juz watchin tv..cool movie,dragon squad.bila dah habis,on9..bosan pula,so i baca lah blog sumbody,he talk bout met up wif his ex gF...well,his luv story reminds me bout sum1.bcoz cerita der lebih kurang sama dgn what hppn 2 me&my ex bF..but what da diff?since we broke up,we nvr discuss@try 2 fix our situation.bukan dendam,juz dat rltnshp end up sebab salah faham..macam unfinished bsns lol.....den,sumhow bila i on9 YM..syed[my ex bF] say hi..8clly terkejut[hish2..macam link pula dgn blog yg i baca juz now]...x expect we gonna talk after a year ago.cakap biasa2 saja,x ada apapun,until he askin bout my bF...den,merebak kepada cerita lama kami[when i still wif him]..2 be frank,rasa x selesa when he confessed dat..if i dun meet my mr.right in da next 5yrs..he wanna be my last option...i thou itu cuma lawak,but he say x...so,i jadi blank.i mean,i'm wif syahrool now..and he got gF too..x pernah terfikir pula pasal tu...den,b4 off..he said,text me when u need sum1 2 talk[ayat ni macam pernah dengar....]..so i cakap,i dun hv ur number.haiz...makin lah sakit kepala..so try 2 relax..dengar lagu plain white t's...hopin dat cud sleep tight 2nite -_-

sis,wish 2 cry on ur shoulder now....

hurm..juz another sad day...still feelin uncomfortable wif my leg cast...still struggle wif asthma..sumhow,i think bout death....1 day i will die bcoz of diz disease..[OMG..i'm goin down now...]..den,my eldest sis gv me sms...2 be frank,i'm x close wif her,i didn't share my probs wif her [ i think most of girls out there will sharin' probs wif their sis,me?naa...] ..i can count how many times dat i spend my time wif her&i dun remember how old she is now?...sounds kejam kan?what 2 do...sejak kecil lagi..jarang jumpa der.high school,der tinggal dekat hostel.den,further study 2 oversea,den dah grad..der kerja&tinggal dekat her own house...i cuma dapat jumpa der kalu ada event@hari-hari penting saja..macam raya...CNY...salu jealous tengok friends@cousins,shoppin 2getha wif their sista..lagi kalu tengok kardashian sisters...Y_Y...me?keep askin maself,why i nvr got dat chance?sampai college-mate pernah tanya,u x ada kakak ke?masa tu,juz diam saja....but..diz sms...
''lil sis,gv me a call@sms when u really need sum1 2 talk.i noe,its x easy 4 u 2 thru all of diz.but,i'm always here 4 u.get well soon.luv u''..i juz cryin..cryin...can't stop lol...wish 2 cry on her shoulder now...but,she juz so far away from me...

i'm not in mood..........................

Hurm............last nite juz like my nitemare.disebabkan bibik yg panic tengok darah,x pasal2 doktor datang.benda tu x ada apapun until doktor tukar new gauze,sakitnya..Tuhan saja tao.boleh pula doktor tu cakap nak bagi injection...walah...tahan saja.den,he gv me new medicine.der cakap,kalu masih muntah2...kena admitt balik[y_y] ...bila dah rasa lega,switch on h/p sebab b3 chargin.8clly terasa wif sum1,tapi try buat x ada apa2.lagipun dah mid nite,malas nak gaduh.....den sumhow sumthin hppn which make me totally out of mood.nak menangis?dah x larat lol...dgn sakit lagi...x apa lah..tahan saja...tido around 4.30 i guess...den,i woke up at 8am.sleepy+tired.bibik bawa breakfast&ubat...telan saja lah walau x sedap.mummy datang tengok..der x kerja ke?mummy cakap ada event+nak pergi settle pasal kereta abg adam...so yana tanya lah,agak2 berapa nak kena bayar?da answer=5k not include da other car!OMG...........................[y_y]..dear brother,i'm sorry...den,around 11,my bro call...police otw 2 c me...haiz...sabar saja.... [ i dun want 2 talk bout conversation between me wif dat police officer,juz 1 word 2 describe A.C.A.B]...sebab dah x larat sgt,tertido...itu pun kejap saja...den i got sms....sayang dah bangun? [ sum1 dat i can't 4get = dat word make me sick dear]..........................................

bibik,doktor,pumpkin&polis....................

2nd day after accident...still struggle 2 adapt all of diz...kasihan dgn bibik,mesti penat der layan yana...comment macam2..bubur x sedap...ubat x sedap...muntah..der jugak yg kena bersihkan...haiz...susah hati,mimpi bukan2...takut dah nak tido...den encik doktor datang.ceramah benda yg sama...u kena makan ubat,jangan banyak gerak,i noe its x easy 4 u but what 2 do...[lebih kurang macam tu lah der cakap y_y]...den my pumpkin call...i dunno how 2 say..he juz become terlalu ambil berat...setiap setengah jam der akan call...walah...2 be frank,rasa appreciated.at least i noe,time sakit2 ni ada orang yg bagi perhatian...even der suka buat joke&i can't laugh so much sebab sakit..really can't imagine how 2 live w/o him....hish2...fikir bukan2 lagi....der cakap nak mandi,so i say ok..i luv u sayang,luv u 2 pumpkin..tap...[end of call].....suddenly,my bro call bagitao yg polis x jadi datang.huh..lega lah sikit....[bukan i x rasa bersalah ok,juz rasa x ready nak bagi statement]...hope 2day everythin goes smoothly...sakit pun,tahan saja...berusaha untuk buat macam x ada apa2..ganbate farah dayana!

a man who sold his world 4 me

i dunno how 2 start but what i'm doin now ,its all about da way i appreciate a man who sold his world 2 me.i can't sleep rite now bcoz pain at my back [x pernah sakit macam ni y_y] .but i will try 2 act like i'm ok....hurm,30th of may will be the day dat i won't 4get.everythin juz fine until i got sms dat kill my stability.what u feel when u got da bad news,da 1 u luv,gone....leavin u w/o note.totally zero....den,drivin my bro's car..suddenly...BAM!!when i woke up,oredy in hospital.nuthin cud describe what i felt...juz cry..cry..cry...sakit,pening,sedih..semuanya ada.but the most,can't imagine my life w/o him.kasihan wif mummy,x ingat berapa kali i cakap dekat der,nak balik rumah.nak balik rumah.finally,dapat jugak.bila sudah dekat rumah,cousins non-stop datang.dat time rasa...bloody always be bloody...bila semua dah balik,ambil h/p...send sms 2 noe what hppn 2 him [dah fikir patut pergi @ x on his funeral] . guess what?''death man'' call me.i thou i was dreamin,but 2nd time callin.its him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!he still alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG,cry again lol...speechless..he explain everythin....what a damn joke dat his fren gv 2 me?haiz....almost die bcoz of dat ''death joke''....hurm..it makes me realize,tq God 4 a gud lesson like diz....i need 2 appreciate every seconds dat my time wif him....who noe,if tomorrow never come...its u syahrool,a man who sold his world 4 me...